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Watkinsville, Georgia, United States
We lost my beautiful wife of 20 years on 9/12/07. Lisa was my world she was my everything and now she is gone. We are learning to live without Lisa now. I say we because I am not alone. My children are stuck in this mess with me. These are my notes, my vent, my way of letting you all know that we are doing well (some days). This is for myself, my friends and my family that want to know how we are doing and what we are up to. Along the way I hope this might also help someone else who has been dealt a similar hand.

Saturday, May 26, 2012

In The Long Run

I know, it’s been a while…

I’ve actually tried to stay away from here on purpose.  I suppose for a number of reasons but in part to help me move forward in some ways.  Of course, the past six months or so have also been freakishly busy for me.

We, Matt and I, have been preparing for college and his departure tomorrow.  That’s right, in fact he leaves in the morning.  Last weekend was graduation and he leaves in the morning to spend the summer working as a 4-H camp counselor at the beach.  He’s very excited to be getting out on his own and extremely stoked about getting to spend the entire summer at the beach.  Since it’s about a six hour drive from here, he’s not planning on coming home on the weekends.  Instead, he’ll spend the weekends at the camp fishing, swimming, surfing and working crab traps.  Not a bad way to spend the summer…  He’ll be back in about eight weeks and home for only a couple of weeks before he’s off to college in South Georgia.

With that I’ve reached the goal I set for myself five years ago, to finish the job that Lisa and I started.  Naturally, I’m smart enough to know that you’re really never finished with being a parent but my goal was to get them both through high school and out into the world on their own.  Reaching this goal IS rather bittersweet however.  While I’m really ready for some ME time, really ready... I’m really going to miss my boy.  I suppose my only real issue is that while I had a short-term five-year plan, I didn’t have a plan for after that and “after that” is here now.

So what now?  That’s an excellent question and I’m not really sure…  I’m not too worried about it however.  I have faith that things will work out in the long run and I have absolutely no doubt that I will eventually figure out what’s next in my Life Without Lisa.

Who knows, maybe I’ll start writing on a regular basis again…