I continue to be haunted by my love for Lisa.
You see we just got back from our annual visit to the Ritz Carlton on Amelia Island. It was, as always, a wonderful place to get away and be treated special. I did pretty well for the most part. However, it was difficult to see all the happy couples walking throughout the hotel holding hands, smiling and enjoying their children.
I just cant help but think, “that was us” when I see them. It reminds me of what I have lost. It makes me mad that I don’t still have that. We just had so many good times there. It was always fun and relaxing. It’s not so much fun when your at the pool with an empty chair next to you. On one hand, I think that it would be good to find a new place to go and do something different. On the other hand, we have many good memories of time spent there. I even discussed the possibility of finding a new destination with the kids and they didn’t even want to think about it.
All that said we had a pretty good time. My brother and his family even came to the hotel for one night. That helped break things up a little bit. It was nice to have them with us for a while. To mix things up even more, I let Matt bring a buddy this year instead of Abby bringing someone.
Of course, Matt’s first choice was his buddy William. They get along great and I don’t think that they have ever had a cross word with one another. They are easy to please and have gotten to the point were they really don’t need constant supervision. Well they might need a little supervision considering they each showed up at the pool one afternoon with a tattoo sticker on their lower back. I’m not sure where they got the stickers but we all got a pretty good laugh out of their antics.
A trip to the beach is always a wonderful treat but it’s always great to be back home. I’m going to think long and hard about finding a new place to spend our summer vacation. I’m leaning toward trying something new and making some new traditions and memories. I think that might be a healthy choice and enable me to continue to move forward in my life without Lisa.