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We lost my beautiful wife of 20 years on 9/12/07. Lisa was my world she was my everything and now she is gone. We are learning to live without Lisa now. I say we because I am not alone. My children are stuck in this mess with me. These are my notes, my vent, my way of letting you all know that we are doing well (some days). This is for myself, my friends and my family that want to know how we are doing and what we are up to. Along the way I hope this might also help someone else who has been dealt a similar hand.

Thursday, December 10, 2009


I am totally bummed out… I missed super club again! That appointment I had last night ran over, way over... This is the only social event that I have. It’s the only place that I go and can be surrounded by adults and forget about everything for a little while. Other than church, it’s the only thing I do just for me. It’s my own fault and I can’t blame anyone else. When I made the appointment I just assumed that I would be able to finish in time to get to the dinner. Once again my lack of skills in balancing my schedule and not biting off more than I can chew came back to haunt me. To top it off, I had to deal with roommate drama from baby girl.

I wish I could start yesterday all over again!

Well, I suppose if I could do that I would go back to September 12th 2007 and lock Lisa in the house for the day. Unfortunately, there are no do over’s or mulligan’s in the real world. So, I suppose Ill stop winning and move on. After all, there is always next month for super club.

This has made me think about a few things, however. I think my new year’s resolution will be to find more to do for ME. I don’t know what that will be but I have to find something. Maybe I can find a woodworker’s club or take a class of some kind. Hey, maybe I should look for a class that teaches flower arranging? I might meet an interesting woman that might want to tutor me in the fine art of flower arraignments. Nah, with my luck they will all be 70 years old and/or married. I don’t know what to do but I know I need to do something. Missing dinner last night and knowing how that has made me feel tells me that I need to start taking care of me as much as I have been taking care of the kids. It takes me back to a divorced lady that I know. We had a discussion some time back in which she told me not to just focus on the kids. She told me how after she got divorced she did nothing but take care of her son and work. Now, her son is gone, she is alone and has zero social life. She said that if she had it to do over again she would do it differently. Well, like I said, there or no mulligan’s in real life!

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