I am so very tired of hurting. I am so very tired of this constant pain that I have no way to suppress or eliminate. The constant throbbing and aching of my heart is old, very old. I just want it to end but it won’t. The torment continues day after day, week after week, year after year. Two years and two months and it is still there. All be it, not as predominant and not as intense but still there.
What will change this, what will end it, what will eliminate it…
I feel the only thing that will change, end or eliminate it is forgetting. That’s not an option though. I can’t just forget her and pretend that she never existed!
So I continue, exhausted, one foot in front of the other, day by day by day…
- Chris Anderson
- Watkinsville, Georgia, United States
- We lost my beautiful wife of 20 years on 9/12/07. Lisa was my world she was my everything and now she is gone. We are learning to live without Lisa now. I say we because I am not alone. My children are stuck in this mess with me. These are my notes, my vent, my way of letting you all know that we are doing well (some days). This is for myself, my friends and my family that want to know how we are doing and what we are up to. Along the way I hope this might also help someone else who has been dealt a similar hand.