- Chris Anderson
- Watkinsville, Georgia, United States
- We lost my beautiful wife of 20 years on 9/12/07. Lisa was my world she was my everything and now she is gone. We are learning to live without Lisa now. I say we because I am not alone. My children are stuck in this mess with me. These are my notes, my vent, my way of letting you all know that we are doing well (some days). This is for myself, my friends and my family that want to know how we are doing and what we are up to. Along the way I hope this might also help someone else who has been dealt a similar hand.
Thursday, November 26, 2009
I even made the decision to stay put this year. We have traveled the last two years mostly because I was running away from the depression of being here without her. I just wanted to stay home this year and get some work done. I don't get a lot of time off so I thought this would be a good chance to get a few things done. I was going to cook the entire dinner myself but caved in at the last minute. I decided we would have our dinner with Roy & Diane. I did, however, cook two blueberry pies and a sweet potato soufflé. Matt had requested both dishes and I did not want him to be disappointed.
While this year is better than the last couple it's still, non the less, strange and unnatural to be without her. There is that huge empty spot in my heart and life. Its hard to explain... I am hoping that one day Thanksgiving will not feel so empty. I know it will never be the same as in the past but I do hope that it wont feel so unfamiliar and hollow.
For now, I just thank God for what I have and try not to dwell on what I don't have.